but the minutes don't stop

HELP. GODDAMMIT SM. YOU WIN. I CONCEDE DEFEAT. I COMPLETELY CONCEDE DEFEAT.

except LAY really. really. where did you even get LAY from. where. but oh my god so many feelings. so either it's this kid or it's someone with the same name and same face and is also in SM lmfao but slkgjsdlkgjsdgsdgsd I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF.

I DON'T KNOW WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I FELT LIKE THIS. CANNOT HANDLE. oh my god and some of his younger kid pictures are the most adorable thing ever I'M SORRY IF TLIST BUT UM UM UM.

feelings. so many feelings. what is this. help. 张艺兴 45 minutes ago i didn't even know your name but now i need to know EVERY THING ABOUT YOU.

（ps 91 baby all is well. 90 would have been better BUT I CAN DEAL)

(also fun fact when romanized his first name is the same as my (girl) cousin's and we share a last name :c ...it's also like the most common last name ever so it was statistically likely BUT CLEARLY THIS WAS FATE)

And now I have to be functional tomorrow how do I do this what do I do with all these feelings oh my god.

..................send help ;~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~;

I haven't made a journal entry of any sort in a very long time, but I felt like this journal felt a little too empty! I stopped making journal entries because if I have something to say, I usually say it on twitter right away haha.

...I don't actually have anything to say right now either! Um, I got people's cards, and they're on my shelf, and they make me really, really happy! I'm calling it my ~*shelf of love*~ because that's what it feels like, and that's what I feel every time I look at it.

除了这些，今天晚上我刚从沃阿姨姨夫家回来。我本来是要不去的，像今天把两个pinchhit写完，但我妈说了一句，这可能是最后一次看到我姨公公姨婆婆。他们又老，也大概不会再回到加拿大了。没说的一句就是也不知道他们什么时候也就不再了。像这样说，我不得不去。

哈哈，我的姨公公一只给我倒酒，也是什么36度68度56度的白酒，二锅头这些。好冲！！！！舌头都骂了!!!!!!!他也说了“说得难听一点，我们大概喝不过她“<-说我的tolerance。哈哈这件事我也就不说了！

Um, in terms of other Christmas things, I didn't really get any presents this year so I can't...make a list. I bought myself a playbook two months or so ago because it was on sale, and I guess that counts as a Christmas present!? I actually did ask for a book, but I think my parents forgot completely...so I guess I'll go buy it myself soon. Hehe, oh well, that was the plan originally anyway! So! Everything people sent in cards was great great great, because it really made my Christmas!

Oh, something else is that I　ｒｅcently got my G2 license - what this means is that I can now drive on the freeway! (As long as someone with a G license is sitting beside me.) I've only driven on the freeway once so far, and that was to a friend's house yesterday. It was...a little...scary. I guess I'll have to get used to it ;~~~~~~~~~;

...........................Um. In terms of that big chinese block up there, basically tonight I got dragged to my aunt and uncle's house and we had dinner with them and my aunt's mother and father who are going back to China in a few days, and I drank a lot. I also ate a lot. A lot a lot a lot. IT WAS SO GOOD. MY AUNT MADE DUMPLINGS AND THEY WERE DELICIOUS. And this salad thing, and noodles, and drumsticks, and just so much good food and I think I ate as much as I usually do in more than two meals it was ridiculous. And then there was cake. Ahahahahaha orz.

OKAY I'M DONE going to shut up now bye.